My biggest fear? To be alone

No one wants to be alone, and no work is more insulating than being pop star.

Just ask Lady Gaga.

Her lift of glory in 2009-10 was unlike everything we had seen before. One of the first pop -stars to use the power of the Internet, it seemed to be constantly pressing photos and gossip blogs TMZ.

Their appetite was voracious. For three years, she wore so many views and sounds that one critic wrote that “Madonna’s fast career”.

And as her glory grows, the headlines became more confused. She staged a Satanic ritual at the London Hotel … She was secretly hermaphrodite … She planned to see her own foot “for fashion”.

When she attended the 2010 MTV Award in a dress made completely from the meat, no one seemed to be a joke: Gaga handed herself as feed for tabloids, there you need to consume.

On stage, she was the object of worship to her fans, small monsters. But everyone who is not megalomania knows that such affiliation is a distant illusion.

“I’m alone, Brandon. Every night,” Gaga said in a documentary in 2017, five feet.

“I go from everyone who touches me all day and talk to me all day to complete silence.”

Now 38, and gladly engaged in the technical entrepreneur Michael Polanski, Gaga admits that her loneliness has scared her.

“I think my biggest fear did it on its own – doing life on its own,” she says BBC.

“And I think the biggest gift was a meeting with my partner Michael and being in the thicker with him.”

The couple have been together since 2020 and revealed their engagement at the Venice Film Festival last September – where Gaga for the first time wore a wedding ring per one million dollars.

In person, it is dazzling, with a huge oval diamond, located on 18-carcass white and pink gold Diamond Pavé.

But on the other hand, Gaga is engaged in a smaller, more humiliated ring, which presents several grass blades put in resin. It turns out this this This is really special.

“Michael actually offered me these grass blades,” she reveals.

“We have been in the backyard for a long time, and he asked me,” If I suggested you, for example, how do I do it? ” “

“And I just said,” Just get the grass from the back yard and wrap it on your fingers, and it will make me so happy. “

It was a deeply romantic gesture that came from itself. The gagi’s back yard in Malibu had previously held a wedding to his close girlfriend Sonia, shortly before she died of Cancer in 2017.

“There was so much loss, but this happy thing was happening to me,” she recalls the proposal of Polanski.

“To get it in 38 … I thought about what needed to get to this point.”

These feelings eventually reported the song on her new Mayhem album.

Called (naturally) the blade of grass, it finds a star singing about A ‘A kiss of lovers in the garden made of thorns“And the promise of love during the dark.

She calls it “thank you” to her partner. And fans can also have a reason to thank.

Meigem notes the full throttle of Gaga in pop, after a period she was busy with her career, and spin albums that tried in jazz and classic American song.

Speaking to Vogue last year, the singer showed that her groom pushed her in this direction.

“He looked like, ‘Baby. I love you. It is necessary to do pop -music “,”, “,” ” she said.

“I saw a fire on the excursion Chromatica,” Palansky added. “I wanted to help her keep keeping it alive and just start doing music that made her happy.”

With this approach, the album returns to the sound of the early gagi hits like poker, just a dance and born.

In the last single, Abracadabra, she even revisions “Rome-ma ma“Gibers of bad romance – though this time there is a reference to death when she sings,” “Mort -a -haga“

In the album’s work, her face is displayed in a broken mirror. In the video, she stands out against the previous versions of herself.

There is an insurmountable feeling that artist Stephanie Hermanita is considered to be the stage person she created.

Everything comes to mind on the track called Perfect Celebrity where she sings “I became a notorious creature” – lyrics that, like a dress in front of it, deprives her of humanity.

“This is perhaps the most angry song about the glory I wrote,” she says.

“I created this public person, which I really became in every way – and I keep the doubleness of it, knowing what I was starting with, and Lady Gaga ended, it was really a problem.

“It’s kind of having removed me.”

How did she reconcile the public and private aspects of her life?

“I think I actually realized it is healthier no There is a dividing line and integrate these two things into one whole person, “she says.

“The healthiest for me was the possession of the fact that I am a woman -artist, and that I live an artistic life was my choice.

“I am a fan of writing songs. I am a fan of creating music, rehearsal, choreography, stage production, costumes, lighting, exhibitions.

“That’s what it means to be Lady Gaga. It’s an artist behind all this.”

In previous interviews, the musician spoke about how she was dissatisfied with Lady Gagi. For a while, she believed that the hero was responsible for her entire success, and she did not bring anything.

Mayham notes the moment when it returns the property to its music not only from Lady Gagi, but also from other producers and writers in orbit.

“When I was younger, people tried to take a loan for my sound, or my image (but) all my links, all my idea of ​​what could be pop -music came from me.

“So I really wanted to reconsider my previous inspirations and my career and possess my invention, once and for all.”

From the very beginning, it was obvious that Gaga was excited about this new phase.

Last summer, speaking at the Olympics ceremony, she took to the street of Paris and Lost early demonstrations of their new music For fans who gathered near their hotel.

It was a belonging to this point, but it noted another effort to restore the spontaneity of her early career.

“It was what I had been doing for almost 20 years, where I played my fans my musical way before it came out,” she says.

“After my shows, I invited fans behind the scenes, and we would hang out, and I would have lost them with demonstrations and looked at what they think about music.

“I’m sure you can imagine that after 20 years you don’t expect people to still appear to hear your music and be delighted with you. So, I just wanted to share it with them because I was excited that they were there.”

As an interviewer, it’s also a full moment for me. I last questioned Lady Gaga In 2009As soon as the dance got to the number one in the UK.

Then she was twisted with excitement, with enthusiasm chatting about her love for John Lennon, calling herself a “heroine drug addict” for English tea, and promising to send me mp3 from blueberry kisses – a non -commissioned song that, quite brilliantly, about the performance of the sexual act, while your breath smells.

For years I have seen her interview become more protective. She would wore flakes or black-black sunglasses, intentionally delivering a barrier between her and a journalist.

But Gaga I meet in New York, the one I talked 16 years ago: comfortable with me, and filling with enthusiasm.

She is putting that it is easy to “grow up and life full of life.”

“Being next to my friends, being next to my family, meeting my amazing groom – all these things made me a whole man, not the most important thing that was my stage person.”

From the air of the finality she adds: “I wanted Mayhem to have an end. I wanted the chaos to stop.

“I departed from the icon. It ends with love.”