Billie Lourd Shares Emotional Tribute To Late Mother Carrie Fisher

Billie Lourd she admitted she felt “sad but grateful” as she marked her mother’s eighth birthday Carrie Fisher death.

Opening up about her complex feelings about the somber occasion, Lourd shared an emotional tribute alongside an echoing image of herself with her late mother via Instagram on Friday, December 27.

“It’s been 8 years since then my mother died. As my son would say “that’s a lot!” I always dread this day. I spend so much time leading up to it thinking about how terrible I’m going to feel,” Lourd, 32, wrote, “And my fear is usually right. I woke up this morning with a dark cloud over me. But when my children woke up, the dark cloud dissipated and gave way to bright shining sunshine. The anniversary of her death is like an emotional tropical storm. It pours rain much of the day but between the storms the light is more beautiful than on any day without storm clouds. There is no rainbow without rain.”

The actress went on to draw on an analogy to explain what it felt like to come to grips with her feelings of grief.

“There is great Anne Lamott quote, grief is ‘like a broken leg that never heals perfectly – that still hurts when the weather is cold, but you learn to dance with the limp’. And that perfectly describes how I feel today,” Lourd wrote.

He continued, “Yes, the weather is bitterly cold and yes I may have a limp but I’m totally dancing through life (oops did I quote wrong?). And I’m actually a better dancer with my limp. My grief has given me a deeper appreciation for all the little moments in life. So today I am sad (sad but grateful). I watch the magic that is my son and daughter and I know she is a piece of that magic. And I feel all the things. The grief. The joy. The longing. The magic. The emptiness. The completeness. And it all coexists in a profound way. Sending my love to everyone out there who needs it. ❤️”

Since Fisher’s death, Billie has welcomed son Kingston, 4, and daughter Jackson Joanne, 2, with a partner Austen Rydell.

Fisherman he died in December 2016 aged 60 after suffering a heart attack. One day later, Fisher’s mother, Debbie Reynoldshe died of a stroke aged 84.

In the years since her mother and grandmother passed, Lourd has been often open up about her loss.

Last year, Lourd commemorating the birthday of her mother’s death with another poignant message.

“It’s been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting?? Me I guess?),” Lourd wrote in December 2023. “Each anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief Some fill me with rage, some make me cry all day, some make me feel disconnected and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make for me to feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me feel all those things all at once. “

The Scream Queens alum also acknowledged in December 2021 that processing grief is “never simple.”

“I’m in and a different stage of grief in every moment of every day,” Lourd wrote via Instagram. “My grief is a multi-course meal with many complex ingredients. An entertaining taste of bargaining followed by a taste of anger with a side of depression, acceptance for the entree and of course a bit of denial for dessert.”

He continued: “And that’s how grief should be – everything all at once – there really is no ‘should’ in grief – grief is just whatever it is for you and that’s how it should be.'”